Alissatwin

I never thought about life or death, but I'm drawn further towards thinking about it everyday. I can't ignore it, I can block it out and build up walls but that protection always crumbles away.     I was thinking about loyalty. What is loyalty? I could define loyalty as sticking by someone through thick and thin. You are loyal in a marriage (or 'supposed' to be). You are loyal to your friends, so doesn't that mean you should be loyal to your family?     I debated this for a while. I wanted to think back on my life, I wanted to reach into my 'not so distant' past. I can't. I don't want to remember.     They say that to move on in your li